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Choice after American Honey

Finally! First movie in Germany. As a non-German speaker, Watching movie in Germany is not so easy since German people loves bedded version. This was the only movie available in original language. American Honey is a story of choices of one American teenage girl, Star, who was born in a chaotic family with drag addicted parents who had no interests in raising kids. She chose to start new life with group of young people who sells magazine through US. Door to door, to Rich family, poor family, the one who has and the one who doesn’t. This movie reminds me how life can be unfair depends on the situation you are born into. What makes me “Me”, what I have, is not only result of personal effort I made but it is a lot depends on environment I was in. My parents put education first, so I could go to University. They didn’t let me eat too much sugar, taught me being healthy is important, so I care what I eat. But what if I was born …

Need to get cheered up?

For people who just started something new or people who is on the way to their goal, the road usually is not so easy. There will be tough days and there will be a day you feel you maybe just not good enough to achieve your goal. I recently finally found something I really want to do. The goal looks  far away and I have no exact idea how to achieve it. To maintain my motivation, I decided to take a note about people whose life and words gives me power so later I can come back. 1. Deshun Wang   80 years old Chinese model with perfect body. Started carrier as theatrical actor at age of 24 Started learning English at age of 44 Moved to Beijing and become drifter to started over his life at age of 49 Started to going gym at age of 50 Started serious working out at age of 70 God his first cat walk at age of 79     ” I am 80 years old and I still have some dream …

Unable to choose

I feel I am taking day by day longer and longer to choose things.  Choosing one movie to watch on Netflix can take me 1 hour, choosing what to do with my hair can take hours sometime. Choosing things became more complicated and not fun for me. It is bad because life is full of making choices. Why choosing things became so stressful for me? What changed? When I was a child, I don’t remember I was suffering from choosing things. I didn’t have to think about what I want to eat because my parents were cooking and I didn’t have much choice for my clothes either because what I had was not much. I remember I was thinking how not to wear same thing twice or three times to school within one week. My parents was saving every penny for my education so I didn’t have much choices in the first place. Also, going out for restaurant or going out for movie was a big event for me. I wasn’t thinking about which restaurant …